random thoughts

I often think about all those memories that I wish had never left me

Now it seems to be so far away

It used to be with me 

I used to live my dream

I know Ive done things that I shouldnt have done

But I am in no position to undo those mistakes

Its a done deal I cant change it but I regret it

For example, Seeing my friends studying medicine 

it makes me happy, at least I can see my dream through people that I care

It was the one thing that I really wanted in life

I want to help others,

I left home for something that I thought could lead me there

I sacrificed my love for something that I believe could jump start my dream

It was a gamble and I lost my game

Fair enough, I FAILED

and so I lost everything

I am not going to give up

Just because I cant get into my dream career

it doesnt mean I cant be successful

now things are different

I will still serve the people

In a different way

Insyaallah, by studying economics and politics

I can still achieve a part of my dream

which is to serve the people

I have experienced how it felt to be in a golden era in my life

The feeling of being complete

The feeling of being in control of my life

I had it all

I have a feeling

that, NOW I am ready

With my family and friends that matters

on my side

Golden Days of my life will be back