The time is now

Next week will be my final academic week for Semester 2. Final exams and assignment submission follows before I end my first year It felt like just yesterday I finished SPM but now I’m already going into my second year in university. My journey is still at the very beginning and there is still a long way to go before graduation but things are going extremely fast Im not sure it will feel that long.


Having said that, I think the time has come for me get out of this cocoon ive built around myself for far too long. I have restricted myself from doing many things that I have wanted not because I cant but because I don’t want to. University is where the great separate themselves from the good, its where extraordinary people distant themselves from the ordinary crowd. History have shown that great leaders blossomed at university level. Anwar Ibrahim for example was a student leader at university level. He was the founding leader of ABIM and was actively involved in student movements. With 2 years left, if I do not start doing something meaningful I fear that my university days will be all about examination and assignments, nothing more, and nothing meaningful.


I have a dream.


I want help build my country for my future and for the future generations.


I do not see life as in terms of dollars and materials. I think there are more to it. I am not denying the fact that money is important but why cant I earn money differently. All my family members lambasted me for my opinion. No one supports my decision to be actively involved in my nation’s decision-making process. My parents, auntie’s, uncles, everyone was against it. Not a single person asked me why I have such a deep passion in politics. They ignored my feelings; they ignored me as an individual. My political views might be a little bit different from them. However does it mean I do not deserve a chance to explain my reasons?


Everyone seems to have forgotten the fact that I am studying Economics not accounting. Even from that people should be able to see that I am more interested in finding solution for the PEOPLE not Companies.


Don’t get me wrong. I do like money and for sure I would like to earn lots of money. I’ll be a hypocrite and a liar if I say I don’t want to live a lavish and luxurious life. Just that I also believe in serving the community at the same time. By which I mean getting involved in the society not just throwing around money and expecting it to solve problems such as social issues, poverty and community development.


No matter what challenges I face despite getting absolutely no support from anyone my spirit will not die. I will take advices but my dream shall not fade away. It stays. I will achieve it eventually. Maybe now people cant see my vision but I believe if I am patient and consistent, one day people will understand. For that to happen, there are many things that I have to do especially balancing my life. There should be enough emphasize on my studies and also in community service. In order to achieve my dream and to prove the critics are wrong.


I have no choice but to start progressing.

The time is NOW.

Late night in Adelaide

Its 2 in the morning and I cant sleep. The fact that Ive got a morning class tomorrow makes it worse. Its my first day in uni after 2 weeks so I was rather tired I slept at 8 for about one hour and now here I am wide awake. It has been a while since I wrote random stuffs here. This is supposed to be the place where I write wtv comes to my mind. I would again like to stress that I'll write anything that I consider suitable here. People have warned me that  student blogs are being monitored government. If its true and I would like to make it clear here that I dont feel threatened at all. I do not spread lies. And if they cant accept the truth or any different opinion I suggest they should just stop being a hypocrite. Why practice democracy if you cant even let the future generation have their own opinion. Forget about freedom of speech or freedom of thought because we are just too far away from that. All I can say is it is disgusting and unacceptable if they were to monitor STUDENTS blog and destroy their future just because they see things differently. Again I am saying this based on warning given to me by a reliable source. I am not accusing but IF its true it is STUPID. And again IF this is true, now I know why so many people wants to migrate and I am talking about talented brains not just normal individuals(doctors,engineers etc.) I used to question them but now I am seriously considering settling down somewhere else, serving another country. 

Enough of that I guess. I just feel so betrayed. Lets talk about about something else. Noticed I used the word 'talk'? Ive met heaps of wonderful friends here in Adelaide. People that really care about me and people that I realy care about. However I havent got any very close friends over here. Unlike previous years I had people around me that really understands me I can express my feelings. Now the only way of expressing my feelings and thought is here, online. I either talk to my friends online or my blog. So thats why I hope you people can understand at times this blog can get emotional. Yes I like intellectualism but I just cant be consistent not here at least. This is where I share my feelings and ideas with the world. I am sorry. By the way it is already SPRING. I love Spring!Awesome season where you can see flower blossoming, enjoy the chill but sunny weather..Its getting reallly late. I shall stop here. Dear friends, life is too short,if you dont start living you will miss out the one chance you get to experience this world. good night.

At the Crossroad of life

Someday you’ll remember

Things that you let go

Shot that you have missed

All the roads not taken

All the fears you succumbed

And when it all comes

You know you’re at a point

The crossroad of life

You know it

This is the moment

You are supposed to decide

You can’t be sure

How it will end

You wish you can run

But where will you go

When you are here

At the crossroad of life.

You had it planned

All the things you want

One thing changes

Everything goes wrong

Life becomes a maze

You wished you were out

It brings you here

Now you’re at

The crossroad of life.

You won’t change your mind

Your heart refuses to move on

Now is the time

You have a choice

To wake up from your dream

To start living

This is when you start moving on

Not holding on to memories

At the crossroad of life

By Ahmad Ridhuan Alauddin,19