=)

When I saw your facebook profile today

I realized I havent been there

for a quite a while

I see you now

Though from a distant, very far away

I saw

everything that I have always wanted

in my life

Its like what I dreamt of

Years ago

It is now reality

Things seems to be just like

Everything that I had planned

For me,for you,for us

We are in uni,young and preparing 

for the future

Unfortunately things are different today

There's me,there's you but no more us

It will never be the same again

Im not that stupid

To even have a glimpse of hope

It is true

We can plan

But Allah has his own plans

for us

Everything happens for a reason

I hope you know

I feel extremely happy for you

As I said

once upon a time

It doesnt matter 

Who I am to you

What's important is your happiness,

I WILL BE HAPPY IF YOU ARE HAPPY=)

Nur Kasih

Inspired by a Malaysian drama, Nur Kasih. Honestly, I rarely follow any Malaysian drama but this one is different. It is impressive!Thumbs up to the director Khabir Bhatia and the actors despite not all being well known produced an outstanding story. I did watched some Malay movies in cinema last year for the sake of supporting the industry because studying economics had made be understand that without support there is no way our industry was survive. Some movies were impressive but others just wasnt good enough. Well, Nur Kasih isnt a movie but its a drama worth checking out. 

Cahaya Kesetiaan

Kau sendiri dalam segala rahsia

Tentang cinta dan derita

Yang telah kau pendam

Sekian lama dalam diam

Segala kerana perasaan kasih

Setia kepada si suami

Sesuci hati seorang isteri

Bukan salah mu,

Segala derita ini

namun kau tetap tabah

Menghadapi segala pancaroba

Tak pernah sekali kau cuba

Menyalahkan tadir

Mahupun berputus asa

Terus teguh menngabdikan diri

Kepada yang maha esa

Sesungguhnya hati ini

Mungkin punya pilihan sendiri

Mengharapkan jalan yang mudah

Tetapi Ingatlah wahai kasih

Hanya tuhan yang menentu

Hala tuju manusia yang hanyalah hamba

Janganlah hampa

Terus kecewa

Suatu hari

Pastinya tiba Saat bahagia

Teruslah percaya

Jangan berhenti

Segala ini, hanya dugaan.

Ahmad Ridhuan Alauddin,19

Salam Ramadhan

I am very thankful to god that I am given the chance to experience this month once more. I wish my fellow Muslim friends all the best, may we use this blessed month the best way possible. It is really amazing for me to look back because for the past three years I have spent this month in 3 different places. 3 years ago I was in Lenggong. Studying for my SPM preparing for THE exam of my life. I was young, 17 to be exact. Last year, I was at home. Enjoying the comfort of my bedroom and mums cooking. Again preparing for another big exam. I was doing my AUSMAT. It was a transition for me coming from a school that have got 97% muslim student to a college that have got less than 10% Muslim student. Back in school everyone was fasting but in college it felt like no one was fasting. However thanks to my wonderful wonderful friends in college it was fun! They were very understanding in fact they were days that we fasted together and when to break fast together. I’ll always remember those days. Finally this year! Here I am far away from home. Things are definitely more challenging here. Unlike previous years I will have to prepare my own food! I really wonder how am I gonna cook especially when I have to cook for the whole house without tasting what I’m cooking. We’ll see how it goes. One thing I realize this year is that next year, Insyaallah I wont be in a different place. I am finally settled at least for another 3 years!It might not be a big deal for other people but is for me. Only god knows what I had went through due to all the uncertainties surrounding my life. All the pressure I had to deal with. Alhamdulillah for now I have a clearer path. Definitely not easy but at least I know where I’ll be next year. Whats gonna happen after that. I shall let time decide. One more thing. I'll be back home soon!

I want a star

When I look at the stars

I believe that there are other stars up above the sky

Because I can see

It is the same

for certain things in life

I need prove

I want to be convinced

I want to believe

That there are other 'stars'

Might not be as bright

Might not be as beautiful

At least it is up there.

I dont wanna fall in love

Not again.

Why?

Because I dont want to hurt anyone

And be hurt by anyone

I dont want to let anyone down

and be let down by anyone

The notion of love doesnt suit me anymore

It had left me feeling so alone

When she's not with me

It had made me cry

When she doesnt reply my text messages

It had gave me sleepless night

Thinking about her and how to make her happy

I thought I couldnt live without her

Who says I cant survive without love?

I dont need to fall in love 

Even if I want to be with someone

I just need to be committed

I just need to trust

I just need to be there for her

I just need to be with her,just her

I just need to be her friend

I just need to be her partner in every way possible

I just need to care about her

NO,I dont need to fall for her

We can be happy

Aint that what everyone need from a relationship

We let our mind be blurred

By a perception that love is all we need

to be happy 

I despise that

Why love when it cant give you happiness?

Why love when it hurts you?

Why love if it forces you to do stupid things?

In the end.

You get absolutely nothing from it.

Yes it can stay with you as happy memories.

Is that what you need? 

Funny People

Underneath anger, there's hurt.

Underneath hurt, there's love.

-from the movie Funny People-

Us

Some things in life are meant to be only in my dreams I guess

Us

If you want to see the world

Can I be the one with you

I wont promise you the world

But I can tell that you'll be my world

I wanna sing and dance and cry

With no one else but you

We will drive on the roads

We can swim through the streams

Climb the mountains and run on trails

I'll be there just for you

We take one step every time

I just need you to be you

-extraordinaryme, 19-

The day

Each year I would write something on my birthday.

Usually it would be something unusual.

Not This Year.

Maybe because Im tired?

Maybe because Im confused?

Maybe because I am uninspired?

I am done.